The weather is starting to change, stores are pulling out the holiday items and your not sure how to get in that cheery spirit? Christmas or whatever holiday you celebrate can be tough when your just starting your life over. My biggest fear was being a burden to my family. I didn’t want to ask if I could sleep over Christmas eve because I wasn’t sure how they would react. Would they show me mercy and let me spend Christmas morning unwrapping gifts with my kids or would they be fearful Id relapse in their bathroom and steal from them. So I put my pride aside and asked my mom how she felt about me spending Christmas with them and if it would make her uncomfortable. Luckily my mom is a very forgiving lady and she let me know that she could see the change in me. Before I would have just assumed it was a no and stayed alone. Our loved ones can see what recovery is doing for our lives better then us addicts can. Even if your family says no to you coming over for the holidays then use it as a motivation. Do not let one day out of 365 break you. Send them a Christmas card and spend the next 364 days proving yourself to them. By the following year you will be a whole new person and they will see that. Never give up on family. That is one thing I have learned. Kids forgive and forget, your mother will always see you as her baby and your dad will always want to be your protector. Do not get mad at your family for showing tough love. Sometimes tough love is what brings us back out of the world of addiction and misery. I wish you a very merry Christmas and a happy, pro-active, sober New Year!